i hate your Mama


whahhaa. Go Jenny!

I know some man have mommy issues and not once I played the mommy role in my man’s life. I wasn’t even conscious about it until recently.
BUT……. the question( it’s always about the question) IS: how to raise boys so that some girl/broad/wife in their lives do not hate ME?
Or how do I raise MANS and not Mamma’s BOYS?

Osho, I think said in some book about children/ family / mother, that you need to show boys different mother figures so that they don’t create in their mind one prototype of women, based solely  on their mother impact and then compare all women from their life with that standard that they have set from early childhood. He also emphasizes the role of communities vs family for raising better adults.
I do think that mothers over the world are selfish and do great damage to their sons with their LOVE. You know…. But I love you I want what’s best for you( the best in their minds). And more often than not their sons become a substitute for a real man in their lives when they stay in an abusive marriage.
Mothers tend to be controlling and they don’t know when to stop mothering the child and let the adult be. After a while, you need to support your mother, not your old lady be a crutch to you.
I hate controlling, possessive and overbearing mothers and I pity their sons !

We women don’t want to be your mommy!
Actually, it makes us sick to make us play that role.

So what is the trick? How to never create pussies instead of men? Is it too harsh? I do love all the man in my life even if sometimes I want to beat the shit out of them( not joking)
I can feel some things but are not well defined.

1. Treat the boy with the respect you treat an adult.
2. Listen to him. Just listen.
3. Do not judge, criticize, compare with a standard/rule you placed in your mind
4. Let him make mistakes. Small and big if there are not life threatening.
5. Do not tell him that he can’t do something, ever.
6. Present the truth and nothing but the truth( this is what I do, even if are big subjects like life and death) but make sure to tell him that this is your opinion and there may be others out there.
7. Be watchful of his gifts, passions and inclinations so that you can offer him the setting to develop skills and merge everything into a profession.
8. Motivate him by being an example.
9. Make him work. Don’t do the job for him( this mistake I do a lot). A man’s role is to provide. He is, in fact, a provider( this I gathered from more than one book)
10. Teach him to respect his body
11. Don’t make him overly attached to you. Make him independent. Know when to stop.

oh. the list is endless.
Yesterday a Waldorf teacher told me. You need to keep the children in your heart space. IF your thoughts became scattered and you are not present the children feel this and they become agitated, off center.

It always resumes to the examples you give. A child learns about relationships from the relation of his parents. He inevitably does what his parents did. He will behave like his father and he will treat women how his father treated his mother.
If you don’t have harmony in your relationships, why bother to educate your child? They learn what they see not what you tell them.

marriage brave not sure who made it



snl please sofia vergara forgiveness


I’m also grateful. Although sometimes shit hits the fan( I’m kind of intrigued/in love with this expression:)))- messy as SHIT), some things are GOOD. I’m grateful for everything because by clashing with others, touching, merging energies, I come to realize what are my boundaries and finally who I am.
Maybe we keep looking to the empty half of the glass of everybody sitting at the table and we are so drunk that we don’t even seem to notice that ours is WHOLE empty.
You are responsible for your glass. Fill the cup to the brim. Sip it slowly, but never ever judge another’s glass !!

We need to FORGIVE so we can live in peace with others and with ourselves.

The triangle of forgiveness:
I forgive and I free myself of all my mistakes that I made Now and Forever to All. I am praying for forgiveness and freedom from my mistakes that I made Now and Forever to All. I am one with Forgiveness.
I am one with Trust. I am one with Love. I am All that I am. I AM.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank You.

The song of the day:




black spots on my soul


You know what.. when you tell somebody that they hurt you, and they try to find excuses that they didn’t hurt you… they don’t have that kind of right. They don’t have the right to tell you if you are hurt or not. Only you are to know.
When hurt I feel such an intense chest pain, it’s unbearable, I feel like dying, my soul is suffering . There are dark spots on my soul.
What it’s happening?
Something is fucking broken. ME. I’m broken and there is no such thing like magic glue. After you glue an old piece o china, something that was shattered in millions of tiny pieces, all you see is a broken object, it’s not whole, not perfect, on the contrary, you can see that it WAS perfect, before it was broken, now you just feel sorry for the fragile useless piece o glued crockery.
How do people end up making step by step the exact actions that ultimately results in a broken piece of china??
I just can’t glue together something that is broken. I can’t. I’m a throw it all away kind of person. I’m gonna put it all to the garbage


THE  year is the fire monkey year,but the chart of the five elements has missing water so is auspicious to have water near, wear blue colors, or even black. I’ m being a water giver right now. I give the Kangen water. Back to origins.  The water is blue. The logo is blue, the sky is blue and my tattoos are blue.

Did you know the fire is blue also? Once you go past the orange and the red, and the yellow, down at the root, in the very center of the heat it is the pure blue. That is the essence.

So we come full circle and we ask ourselves now who are we at our core?

it always gonna be BLUE


this is history in the making

I may not be able to put it exactly in words, but this is something else. It’s never been done like this. So yeah it is music, but it is also art, creative energy expressing in the digital era.  I can feel that it’s not ego driven,  I think the vision behind this hole mass movement is inspired by  SPIRIT.

I keep watching to live shows of this guys and I am in awe. I wish that everybody had the guts to live so fully, to be able to express themselves in love, without fear.

Diplo keeps saying: ” I want to do great music” this is his mantra, over and over.

You do man, but it’s more than this. You’re building bridges between people and music genres, you make partying a social/bonding event in love.

I can feel him supporting  everybody for the greatest good. You are their wingman. This is Mastery and leadership. This is your way and you are showing us that it can be done also having fun and with fucking style.

That doesn’t mean he can’t be a random white dude saying shit. We are all normal and equally  special.

What intrigues me is how to find the guts to take  the jump to the other side of the river from fear to love.

I know that everybody have fears. Maybe, for this guys, the fear of dying without a legacy is greater than anything else. But then again….if you live from spirit and you can let your ego chill, there is no fear.

it’s fascinating. I am inspired by this.

Skrillex / Diplo, Justin & Co I acknowledge your work like a gift to the world, to me.

Thank you

At the end, Puff Daddy says it better;

” I like this, yeah, I like this…I never been to a Skrillex Diplo show. I never  seen anything like this in my life”









I’ma show you how

         S T A R T   W I T H   Y O U R S E L F




(feat. Kai)

You love how you push me to the point of crazy
And I love when you’re on your knees and begging for me
You got me good with all these mind games
There you go, you got my heart again

Say my name, I wanna hear you call
Hold me close, I wanna feel your heart
I’m in a cold sweat and I want you bad
Now you got me all in my head, like damn

[Chorus x4:]
I’ma show you how, show you how, show you how
To love again


[Chorus x8]

here goes nothing

In the realm of creation, there is only one attribute that can give a light being a sense of measure, and that is growth.
In the human planes, there is always growth but it’s not the doing or the process that is worthwhile, but the BEING into the moment, in the present of the unfolding events.
It is the step by step, moment by moment… life, this is the root of the root and the bud of the bud.
We see you and you put so much pressure on yourself, I got to do that, be that, acquire that. And you know what, that is bullshit.
There was never about the DoING, and it’s always gonna be About the BEING.
So are you HERE AND NOW?
Do you feel present, rested, grounded, do you have mind clarity and an open channel to the Spirit intuitive guidance. Do you hear us, loud and clear? Or are you asleep, consuming “time” with substitutes?
You ask us to help you, you want to feel at peace. So we do that. There is no competition, maybe only with yourself, but you are winning every day because you are growing no matter what. You are changing and you are becoming the YOU closer to what you really are.
Confused much?

Especially for you, because you are in a female body suit, try to relax in your feminine nature. Breathe from your belly, let your shoulder drop, just be here. No to do’s. Feel the moment, extend your awareness into the space surrounding you and touch the energy with your energy.
The material world is but an illusion and you would be stupefied about the transitory, dreaminess of her nature. You have Gods infinite power over matter. You want to do manifestation. Fine. But please be clear, clean, polish your device so you can make it function properly.
If Mohamed won’t come to the mountain. The mountain will come.
True. IT’s all in your power. But you are so busy chasing after chimeras.
You are always where you need to be, and although there are gates of opportunities opening and closing, and they are dependable of your time knowledge, there is no pressure. Everything is unfolding according to plan.
Figure out a way, a routine, a mantra, a ritual in wich you can be more in the Now, and accepting yourself. We will help, but you have to take the plunge while we are manufacturing wings. TRUST THAT IS GONNA BE OK.

And know this. You’re biggest fear, once overcome will become your biggest asset !!!

There only 2 ways of living. In fear or in love. Ego vs Spirit.

now go dance

By the way. Stop being such a people pleaser. You are not here to live up to their expectation. you are here for yours. You think that Grimes is special, she is ordinary, but not a people pleaser, she is more Herself, her real HIGH Self then others.
You have that. You all have it


i was wondering

I was wondering about the fact that I don’t know The English language at the necessary level to write. I know English by the ear and my first teacher was Cartoon Network.
So, while I was contemplating the idea of posting more of my internal scribble thoughts I realised that the tune I was listening on Bbc radio 1…was in full chorus like… “don’t you worry about it”…” let me worry about it”…
Then maybe something is gonna come from this.


when stuck just take the next step??

what if you are standing in quicksand?
then raise your hands to the sky and ask God to help you.
Promise Him that you will change, that you will be good, only He helps.
Sometimes life seems to much to bear, and you just can’t see the solution to the facing problems. So I surrender. This is to much for me. I don’t know what to do. ( too but you do- only that it scares the shit out of you- RIGHT)……..So( this is HEAVEN speaking:
-One step at a time and Heaven will lean a hand from the clouds.
Have faith. It’s all that you can do.
And please see yourself as a divine beeing. You are light, it’s all that you are gonna be quicksand or not.

PS: when in quicksand. DO NOT MOVE
stay still, breathe, LISTEN, PRAY…. MEDITATE?

You are exactly where you are meant to be.


i asked i ching what is my purpose in this life- no more running from myself


48 — The Well — 48



Other titles: Welling, Potentialities Fulfilled, The Source, The Deep Psyche, “A resurrection or transformation. Generations coming and going and the continuance of life and development.” — D.F. Hook


Legge: Although a town site may be altered, The Well remains the same. Its water level neither disappears nor receives any great increase, and the people can draw from it freely. Misfortune ensues if the rope breaks or the bucket is broken before it reaches the water.

Wilhelm/Baynes:The Well. The town may be changed, but the well cannot be changed. It neither decreases nor increases. They come and go and draw from the well. If one gets down almost to the water and the rope does not go all the way, or the jug breaks, it brings misfortune.

Blofeld: A Well. A city may be moved, but not a well. [The building of a city depends upon ourselves; but wells cannot be moved to places where nature supplies no water. The implication is that our activities are limited by natural conditions.] A well suffers from no decrease and no increase; but often, when the people come to draw water there, the rope is too short or the pitcher gets broken before reaching the water — misfortune! [What we desire is there for the taking, but we may not succeed in getting it.]

Liu: The Well. The city might be moved; but not the well. It neither overflows nor runs dry. People come and go, drawing from the well. The rope nearly reaches the water, but not quite; the jug breaks — misfortune.

Ritsema/Karcher: The Well: amending the capital, not amending the Well. Without losing, without acquiring. Going, coming: Welling, Welling. Muddy culmination: truly not-yet the well- rope Well. Ruining one’s pitcher: Pitfall. [This hexagram describes your situation in terms of the life water coming from the depths that everyone may draw on. It emphasizes that maintaining access to this central source is the adequate way to handle it. To be in accord with the time, you are told to go to the well!]

Shaughnessy: The Well: Changing the city but not changing the well; there is no loss, there is no gain. Going and coming so orderly; when the drying up arrives one also has not yet drawn from the well; burdening its formed earthenware jug; inauspicious.

Cleary (1):The Well: Changing the village, not changing the well; no loss, no gain. Those who come and go use the well as a well. If the rope does not reach all the way into the well, of if the bucket breaks, that is unfortunate.

Cleary (2): … People come and go, but the well remains a well. Lowering the bucket to the water, if you overturn the bucket before drawing it up from the well, this is unlucky.

Wu:The Well indicates that the planning of a district may be changed, but the location of the well may not. The water level of a well will neither increase nor decrease from use. There are wells here and there. When one is drawing water from a well, if he tangles the rope and damages the bucket just before it clears the well, it will be foreboding.

The Image

Legge: The image of water over wood forms The Well. The superior man comforts the people and stimulates their mutual cooperation.

Wilhelm/Baynes: Water over wood: the image of The Well. Thus the superior man encourages the people at their work and exhorts them to help one another.

Blofeld: This hexagram symbolizes water over wood. The Superior Man encourages the people with advice and assistance.

Liu: Water on wood symbolizes The Well. The superior man inspires people to work diligently, and advises them to help each other.

Ritsema/Karcher: Above wood possessing stream. The Well. A chun tzu uses toiling commoners to encourage mutualizing.

Cleary (1): There is water above wood – A Well. Thus do superior people comfort the people and encourage reciprocity.

Wu: There is water above wood; this is The Well. Thus, the jun zi encourages people to work for the good of the public and to help one another for a better life.


Confucius/Legge: Wood penetrates the water and raises it, giving the image ofThe Wellwhich gives nourishment yet is not exhausted. The dynamic central lines in the second and fifth places indicate that the town site may change, but the well does not. If the rope does not reach the water the well does not serve its purpose. A broken bucket brings about evil.

Legge: The upper trigram represents Water, and the lower symbolizes Wood, giving the image of a wooden bucket in the water of a well. What is said on this hexagram might be styled: “Lessons to be learned from a well for the proper government of a country.” A well is to its users what a government is to its subjects, and if rulers would only apply the ancient precepts of government to the present circumstances, they and their people would benefit greatly.

In the Judgment we see the well remaining substantially the same through many changes of society — a dependable source of refreshment to its users. As the fashion of the well remains changeless, so do the principles of human nature and good government. The value of the well depends upon the water being drawn up and used — and so must the principles of good government be implemented.

Anthony: This hexagram usually indicates that we have a hidden doubt or fear. We may secretly disbelieve our path.


Judgment: Amid the changes of life the only constant is the psyche itself — to be alive is to draw upon its energy. The ego’s challenge lies in the correct comprehension of its images.

The Superior Man promotes the harmonious interplay of his thoughts and feelings. (Works on the integration of his complexes.)

A well is a universal symbol of a source of inner truth, and is often associated with a place that is sacred to the gods:

There he built an altar and invoked the name of Yahweh. There he pitched his tent, and there Isaac’s servants sank a well.
Genesis 26: 25

From the first well, which is of animal nature and deep, the father drinks, together with his children and cattle; from the second, which is yet deeper and on the very margin of nature, there drink only the children of men, namely those whose reason has awakened and whom we call philosophers; from the third, the deepest of all drink the sons of the All-Highest, whom we call gods and true theologians.
Cardinal Nicholas of Cusa

Psychologically interpreted, a well symbolizes the continuously flowing unconscious psyche, the fountain of all awareness. In this hexagram each line represents a level within the well — by extension suggesting a hierarchy of value in the unconscious. It is important to remember that not all of our inner images, intuitions or impulses come from the Self. Note that lines one through four all show the water of the well not being utilized for one reason or another — only in lines three, five and six is it actually available for use.

In some sensitive individuals there is an awakening of para-psychological perceptions. They have visions, which they believe to be of exalted beings; they may hear voices, or begin to write automatically, accepting the messages at their face value and obeying them unreservedly. The quality of such messages is very varied. Sometimes they contain fine teachings, but they should always be examined with much discrimination and sound judgment, and without being influenced by their uncommon origin or by any claim by their alleged transmitter. No validity should be attributed to messages containing definite orders and commanding blind obedience, and to those tending to exalt the personality of the recipient.
Roberto Assagioli —Psychosynthesis

The ego’s point of view in relation to The Well is from the outside looking in – the insights emerge from beneath the surface of awareness and can be held in the light of consciousness only if one’s comprehension is able to contain them. If “the bucket breaks,” our understanding is unequal to our observation and the insights are lost. (One might plausibly find the image for a cancer cure within one’s psyche, but without a conscious frame of reference to acknowledge it, it would be unrecognized and lost.) Those who closely monitor their dreams know that there is an endless outpouring of strange images within the psyche which might be of inestimable value if only we knew what they referred to.

Wilhelm emphasizes the idea of “nourishing the people,” which psychologically means that the role of the ego is to facilitate the cooperation of intra-psychic forces.

The solution lies, rather, along the lines of a harmonious integration of all drives into the total personality, first through the proper subordination and coordination, and then through the transformation and sublimation of the excessive or unused quota of energy.
Roberto Assagioli —Psychosynthesis


Legge: The first line, magnetic, shows a well so muddy that men will not drink of it; or an old well to which neither birds nor other creatures resort.

Wilhelm/Baynes: One does not drink the mud of the well. No animals come to an old well.

Blofeld: The muddy water at the well bottom is undrinkable; an old well attracts no animals.

Liu: No one drinks from a muddy well. Even animals do not come to an old well. [A time of obstacles.]

Ritsema/Karcher:The Well: a bog, not taking-in. The ancient well without wildfowl. [Wildfowl, CH’N: all wild and game birds; untamed.]

Shaughnessy: If the well is muddy do not drink; the old well does not have game.

Cleary (1): Mud in a well is not to be consumed. There are no animals at an abandoned well.

Wu: The muddy water is not drinkable. The old well has nothing to offer.


Confucius/Legge: It has been forsaken in the course of time. Wilhelm/Baynes: Time forsakes it. Blofeld: The first clause signifies that our affairs take a downward trend; the second, that it is time to give up. Ritsema/Karcher: The below indeed. The season stowed-away indeed. Cleary (2): It is below. Because its time is gone. Wu: It has been abandoned.

Legge: Line one is magnetic and at the bottom of the figure – suggesting the mud at the bottom of a well. Many men in authority are like such a well: corrupt, useless, unregarded. It is said of line one: “Those who have a mind to do something in the world, when they look at this line and its symbolism will learn how they ought to exert themselves.”


Siu: At the outset, the man’s life is immersed in corrupt, useless, and repulsive muck. No one is attracted to him.

Wing: You rely too much upon your own opinions and perceptions and therefore have little to offer others in the way of insight or nourishment. When there is no longer an exchange with others, you are lost and forgotten.

Editor: The Legge and Ritsema/Karcher translations are the only ones which mention “birds” or “wildfowl” here; the other translators use “animals,” “game,” or “creatures.” I have often found the attribute of the bird to be useful in interpreting the psychological intent of this line. Birds symbolize the realm of intellect, ideas or thought, and often this line has clearly meant that my idea or concept of the matter at hand was stagnant or out-moded. For example, the notion that the world is flat is an idea which was once widely held, but which has since been “forsaken in the course of time.” The image also suggests a very primitive level within the psyche which is best shunned by consciousness.

In order to seize hold of the fantasies, I frequently imagined a steep descent. I even made several attempts to get to the very bottom. The first time I reached, as it were, a depth of about a thousand feet; the next time I found myself at the edge of a cosmic abyss … I had the feeling that I was in the land of the dead.
Jung —Memories, Dreams, Reflections

A. Image of an archaic, stagnant level of awareness or point of view. Obsolete thinking.

B. Avoid primitive or inferior elements within the situation.


Legge: The second line, dynamic, shows a well from which by a hole the water escapes and flows away to the shrimps and such small creatures among the grass, or one the water of which leaks away from a broken bucket.

Wilhelm/Baynes: At the well-hole one shoots fishes. The jug is broken and leaks.

Blofeld: Perch dart from the water in the well hole; the pitcher is worn out and leaks. [We are doubly unfortunate in that natural conditions (signified by fish in the water) and our own ineptitude or misfortune combine to ensure our failure.]

Liu: The well is like a valley (it is collapsed). The fish can be seen. The jug is old and it leaks. [One should be cautious now to avoid disaster.]

Ritsema/Karcher: The Well : a gully, shooting bass. The jug cracked, leaking. [Bass, FU: freshwater fish, said to go in pairs and be faithful.]

Shaughnessy: If the well is murky shoot the smelt; it is only the worn-out fish-trap.

Cleary (1): The depths of the well water a frog. The jar leaks. [While in the middle of self-development, if one wants to develop others before one’s own development is sufficient, one will be of no benefit to others, and will harm oneself first.]

Cleary (2): The depths of the well a minnow. The jar is broken and leaks. [This second yang is intellectual Buddhahood, where one has been influenced somewhat by learning but has not yet become a vessel of truth.]

Wu: The well is nearly dried up, with little water left for small fish. If one tries to draw water from it, the bucket will be damaged. [Apparently the water table has changed, which prevents water from flowing into the well. Trying to draw water from it not only is unsuccessful, but also will damage the bucket. The little water may be enough for small fish, but it is not enough for people.]


Confucius/Legge: He has none cooperating with him above. Wilhelm/Baynes: He has no one to do it with him. Blofeld: This is indicated by the failure of this line to win response from the other lines. Ritsema/Karcher: Without associating indeed. Cleary (2): It has no partner. Wu: It has nothing to offer.

Legge: Line two is dynamic, and might very well symbolize an active spring which feeds the well, and through it, the ground and its cultivators. But it is in an inappropriate place, and has no proper correlate. Its cool waters cannot be brought to the top.

Wilhelm/Baynes: The water itself is clear, but it is not being used. Thus the well is a place where only fish will stay, and whoever comes to it, comes only to catch fish. But the jug is broken, so that the fish cannot be kept in it. This describes the situation of a person who possesses good qualities but neglects them. No one bothers about him. As a result he deteriorates in mind. He associates with inferior men and can no longer accomplish anything worthwhile.


Siu: As in the case of able statesmen who refuse to serve as ministers of the government, the man possesses precious qualities but neglects them. His talents are dissipated in miscellaneous directions.

Wing: Because you may not be using your abilities and talents in a worthwhile way, you may go unnoticed in the world. When you are not sought out and challenged by your contemporaries, your talents will dissipate. When it becomes most important, you cannot fulfill your function.

Anthony: Doubt that we can achieve our goal through following the path causes good nourishment to be useless.

Editor: This line reiterates the ideas presented in the Judgment: “If the drawing has nearly been accomplished, but before the rope has quite reached the water, the bucket is broken, this is evil.” Psychologically, the image can suggest an insight or idea which is lost because it is not comprehended.

In the training analysis the doctor must learn to know his own psyche and to take it seriously. If he cannot do that, the patient will not learn either. He will lose a portion of his psyche, just as the doctor has lost that portion of his psyche which he has not learned to understand.
Jung —Memories, Dreams, Reflections

A. For some reason you are unable to retain something or make a connection.

B. Wasted energy, lost power.

C. An asset now in decline.


Legge: The third line, dynamic, shows a well which has been cleared out, but is not used. Our hearts are sorry for this, for the water might be drawn out and used. If the king were only intelligent, both he and we might receive the benefit of it.

Wilhelm/Baynes: The well is cleaned, but no one drinks from it. This is my heart’s sorrow, for one might draw from it. If the king were clear-minded, good fortune might be enjoyed in common.

Blofeld: The well has been cleaned out; to my heart’s sorrow, no one drinks from it, though it could well be used to supply drinking water. [If we fail now, it is not for lack of opportunity but because we do not make use of opportunity.] The King is wise and it is possible for the people to share his good fortune.

Liu: The well has been cleared, but still no one drinks from it. This is sorrowful for me (the well), for others might draw from it. If the king is enlightened, he will use it for the benefit of all.

Ritsema/Karcher: The Well: oozing, not taking-in. Activating my heart aching. Permitting availing-of drawing water: Kingly brightness. Together-with acquiescing-in one’s blessing.

Shaughnessy: If the well is seeping do not drink; it makes my heart blocked; it can be used to draw water; the king’s brightness together receives its blessing.

Cleary (1): The well is cleared, but not drunk from; this is the concern of one’s heart. It is worth drawing from. When the ruler is enlightened, all receive the blessing. [This line refers to one whose self-development is fulfilled.]

Wu: The well water is clean, but it is not used for drinking. It is a pity. If it were drawn for drinking, as it should be, then we all would benefit from it like people enjoying the reign of a perspicacious king.


Confucius/Legge: Even passersby would be sorry that the well isn’t used. A prayer is made that the king were intelligent, for then blessing would be received. Wilhelm/ Baynes: This is the sorrow of the active people. They beg that the king may be clear-minded, in order to attain good fortune.Blofeld: The first sentence implies activities which call forth pity; the second, that we should accept our good fortune. Ritsema/ Karcher: Moving: aching indeed. Seeking kingly brightness: acquiescing-in blessing indeed. Cleary (2): When the well is cleared but not drunk from, travelers are concerned; they seek enlightenment in the king to receive blessings.[Because it subdues the basic afflictions of the mind, the well is cleared, but because it does not yet realize essence, it is not drunk from. Here one should seek the aid of the buddhas; then one can help oneself and help others.] Wu: The people pray that the king may be perspicacious, such that they may all benefit from his reign.

Legge: Line three is dynamic and in its proper place — it represents an able minister or officer.


Siu: The man has competence which is being overlooked and unused. Were the chief executive clear-sighted, such a man would have been employed for the benefit of all. Those who know his abilities are deeply saddened to see them go to waste.

Wing: You may be overlooking an opportunity that has come your way or you, and your talents, may be overlooked by others. This is very unfortunate. If somehow this could be recognized, you and everyone around you would benefit.

Anthony: In spite of understanding things correctly, we cling to traditional defenses. The king, our inner self, is not clear-minded enough to trust and draw upon rich inner resources: to ask for help, to trust the unknown, to persevere in allowing ourself to be led docilely and receptively. Our path is trustworthy.

Editor: Legge is unusually terse here. Since this is the only line in the lower trigram that is correctly positioned above its two incorrect companions, it suggests an asset which is ignored to the disadvantage of potential users. Perhaps an insight or connection within the psyche is going unrecognized by conscious awareness. The Well is very hierarchal in the progression of its lines, and it is instructive to compare it with hexagram number fifty, The Sacrificial Vessel, the third line of which has a similar meaning to this one.

Here we confront a puzzling space-time transcendent dimension of a quasi-absolute knowledge from within, which is not, however, directly accessible to the rational ego. In dreams the unconscious dimension operates as if it encompassed unknown events outside of space and time (and to the dreamer often enough unknowable) and also subjective problems which lie ahead in the dreamer’s development.
E.C. Whitmont — The Symbolic Quest

A. An asset is ignored — to the stress of those who might benefit from it.

B. Unused power is wasted power.

C. You don’t see an advantage available to you.


Legge: The fourth line, magnetic, shows a well, the lining of which is well laid. There will be no error.

Wilhelm/Baynes: The well is being lined. No blame.

Blofeld: The well is being tiled — no error!

Liu: The well is being rebuilt. No blame.

Ritsema/Karcher: The Well: lining, without fault.

Shaughnessy: The well is walled; there is no trouble.

Cleary (1): The well is tiled, without fault.

Cleary (2): When the well is tiled, there is no fault.

Wu: There is no error in repairing the well.


Confucius/Legge: The well has been put in good repair. Wilhelm/Baynes: The well is being put in working order. Blofeld: For it is under repair. [We are likely to suffer a necessary delay, but the situation is hopeful.]Ritsema/Karcher: Adjusting the well indeed. Cleary (2): This means fixing the well. Wu: Because it is functioning.

Legge: Line four is magnetic, but in its proper place. She is neither to be condemned nor praised. She takes care of herself, but does nothing for others. The cultivation of one’s self, which is represented here, is fundamental to the government of others.

Wilhelm/Baynes: …In life also there are times when a man must put himself in order. During such a time he can do nothing for others, but his work is nonetheless valuable, because by enhancing his powers and abilities through inner development, he can accomplish all the more later on.


Siu: The man begins to organize his life and develop his capacities. He is too occupied in this task to help others at the moment. For this he deserves no blame, since he will be able to contribute more later on.

Wing: The time has come to pull back and reorganize your life or re-evaluate your goals. This means that you will not be taking an active part in the affairs of others. By putting your life in order, however, you will be able to contribute more fully later on.

Editor: Wilhelm, Blofeld and Liu all translate this line in terms of an incomplete process: the well is undergoing reconstruction. It isn’t “well laid” it is “being well laid.” That is, the well is undergoing repairs now and cannot be used until the repairs are completed. Psychologically, an inner transformation is taking place.

While the hidden life forces are performing their mysterious work of transformation, the rational and willed attitude of the conscious ego can only interfere. It can neither assist nor guide. The libido is withdrawn from it, and it is left high and dry. When this happens one can do nothing but await the re- emergence of the psychic energy, alert to profit by the creative work in which it has been taking part.
M.E. Harding — Psychic Energy

A. While inner forces are being transformed they are unavailable for conscious use.

B. The image suggests the idea of “putting one’s house in order.” Something is being transformed.


Legge: The fifth line, dynamic, shows a clear, limpid well, the waters from whose cold spring are freely drunk.

Wilhelm/Baynes: In the well there is a clear, cold spring from which one can drink.

Blofeld: The well is cool; its water tastes like water from an icy spring. [All goes well with us.]

Liu: The water of the well is clear and cool. People drink from it. [People will succeed in their undertakings and profit from them.]

Ritsema/Karcher: The Well: limpid, cold spring water taken-in.

Shaughnessy: If the well is crisscrossed with cold springs, drink.

Cleary (1): The well is pure, the cold spring is used for drinking.

Cleary (2): The cold spring in the well is drunk from.

Wu: The well water is fresh and clean. It is like drinking from a cool spring.


Confucius/Legge: This is indicated by the central and correct position of the line. Wilhelm/Baynes: Drinking from the clear, cold spring depends on its central and correct position. Blofeld: This is indicated by the suitable position of the line, which is central to the upper trigram. Ritsema/Karcher:Centering correcting indeed. Cleary (2): Balance and correctness. Wu: Central and correct.

Legge: Line five is dynamic and in his correct place — the seat of the ruler. As a well full of clear water is accessible to its users, so should a ruler be to his subjects.

Wilhelm/Baynes: A well that is fed by a spring of living water is a good well. A man who has virtues like a well of this sort is to be a leader and savior of men, for he has the water of life. Nevertheless, the character for “good fortune” is left out here. The all-important thing about a well is that its water be drawn. The best water is only a potentiality for refreshment as long as it is not brought up. So too with leaders of mankind: it is all-important that one should drink from the spring of their words and translate them into life.


Siu: The natural-born leader performs wide and useful services for the people.

Wing: You possess all the potential possible for insight and wisdom. This gift is the mark of an unparalleled leader. Such abilities and insights, however, must be applied to your daily life in order to continue growing and developing.

Anthony: It is not enough to have the water of the well; to be of use we must drink it. If we have doubts about our path, it cannot work for us. We can only make knowledge ours by putting it to experience, and accepting the hazard of depending on it.

Editor: When our conscious attitude is open to inner truth, that truth is reflected in the world. The image suggests that an outer attitude reflects an inner reality. See line six for the subtle difference between the two images.

For when the surface of those waters is disturbed by no slightest ripple of thought,
Then shall the glory of my Self, Which is thy true Self, Be mirrored unto thee.
P.F. Case — The Book of Tokens

A. Integrated energy is at the surface of awareness.

B. You have what you need to succeed.


Legge: The sixth line, magnetic, shows the water from the well brought to the top, which is not allowed to be covered. This suggests the idea of sincerity. There will be great good fortune.

Wilhelm/Baynes: One draws from the well without hindrance. It is dependable. Supreme good fortune.

Blofeld: The well-rope lies unconcealed — confidence and supreme good fortune!

Liu: The well is clean, without a cover. There is confidence that water can be drawn. Great good fortune.

Ritsema/Karcher: The Well: collecting, no cover. Possessing conformity, Spring significant.

Shaughnessy: If the well is arrested, do not cover it; there is a return; prime auspiciousness.

Cleary (1): The well is being drawn from; don’t cover it. Great fortune.

Cleary (2): Do not cover the well enclosure. There is nurturance, which is very fortunate.

Wu: The water is being drawn and the well is left uncovered. With confidence in its inexhaustible supply, people will have great fortune.


Confucius/Legge: This indicates the grand accomplishment of the idea of the hexagram. Wilhelm/Baynes: In the top place, this means great perfection.Blofeld: The supreme good fortune presaged here is in the nature of a great achievement. Ritsema/Karcher: Spring significant located-in the above. The great accomplishing indeed. Cleary (2): Great fortune at the top is great fulfillment. Wu: Great accomplishments.

Legge: The sixth line is in its proper place, but magnetic. If the general idea of the figure was different, a bad auspice might be drawn from it. But the water is drawn up and the well is left uncovered so that it may be used by everyone. “Sincerity” suggests that the supply is inexhaustible.


Siu: The man’s inexhaustible and dependable inspiration is drawn upon by all with whom he comes in contact.

Wing: You can now share with others good, dependable advice and exceptional fulfillment. There will be supreme good fortune in your life.

Editor: The difference in meaning between lines five and six is a maddeningly subtle one. While five suggests that our conscious attitude reflects an inner state, line six suggests that inner and outer have become one — the difference is between the reflection of an object and the object itself. Compare lines five and six in hexagram number twenty, Contemplation, for a similar subtlety of difference. In general the import is that everything you need to comprehend the matter at hand is available for your use.

In so far as every individual has the law of his life inborn in him it is theoretically possible for any man to follow this law and so become a personality, that is, to achieve wholeness.
Jung — The Development of Personality

A. Truth flows freely.

B. All the data are in — now it’s up to you to take advantage of it.


the way

There isn’t any other way than his way. And because he did it, he is the most important guide in this journey through remembrance of our own radiance. I forgot how powerful he is, and how quick to answer prayers.

Never underestimate the love our brother holds for us, because when you call him to be of assistance he is always right there with one hand on your shoulder.

Life seems different with Jesus as my wingman.

Thank you from my deepest heart, from that space wich even I don’t know where it is, but you do.

the song of the day

I was running and at one moment I look up and there were 2 guys running shirtless , all pecks and abs, and they were very cocky like: I’m the King of the mountain!! Whoaa and I had this strong thought to look at them and smell my armpit making a disgusting noise. But I couldn’t do it. I just burst into laughter.
Why couldn’t I do it?
And then an angel sent me this and something was right again.

how would you express yourself if you couldn’t speak?

It is hard because we all tend to lie to ourselves about the truth that is right in front of our eyes. We usually accept less than what we want  and find excuses for more than what we need. But in the end is like smashing your own head to the wall. Painful?
We use words to lie, in internal and external dialogue. If we pay attention to the tense body, the lifeless eyes and the flat voice we know that words are just bullshit. Why can’t we just be sincere acting from our deepest core. Where is that, right?

Dear Lover: A Woman’s Guide To Men, Sex, And Love’s Deepest Bliss AND THE BOSS OF THE BOYS

A Woman’s Guide to Enjoying Love’s Deepest Bliss

Are You Ready to Open to Love’s Deepest Bliss?

Every woman knows the fairy tale: find the right man, give him what he wants and needs, and he’ll love you forever. But when the myth you’ve been asked to believe fails to deliver—when you sense you’ve been settling for far less than you know in your heart is possible—how do you attract and keep a man capable of meeting what you most passionately yearn for?

In Dear Lover, David Deida explores every aspect of the feminine practice of spiritual intimacy, from sexuality and lovemaking to family and career to emotions, trust, and commitment. Written as a collection of letters from a man to his “dear lover,” here is this internationally acclaimed writer’s invitation to practice love as a living art, as you discover:

  • Why your man is always your choice—and how to pick the man of deep integrity who will satisfy the needs of your body, heart, and spirit
  • “Sexual essence” and the three stages of loving: how to understand your fluctuating capacity to experience divine connection with another
  • Knowing when to end a relationship and how to deal with the “him-shaped void” your absent man leaves behind
  • Daily exercises to help you and your partner move from separation to openness in two-bodied devotional trust

Ultimately, what every woman wants is to give and receive love fully. Whether you’re partnered or alone, Dear Lover reveals that “your love is the same love that yearns to open at everybody’s heart. You will attract and inspire a man as willing and able to open as you are.” Here is a trustworthy guide to the lasting fulfillment that comes from this blissful exchange, for the illumination of all.

throw your hands up in the air for all the mothers out there

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Before I had kids, I taught that it was lame to brag about being a mother. I considered women that described themselves first as being mothers some kind of persons that failed life and took refuge in motherhood.
Boy, I was wrong. So yeah, scratch that. Being a mother should not be taken lightly. I read somewhere that said something like motherhood is first a spiritual service for the humankind. And indeed is.
So, I raise my hands high, then I unite them in front of my heart and I bow in front of all mothers from all time space dimensions. I send all of you, my love and my gratitude because humankind would not be possible without you.
What can I say, I am just at the begging of my motherhood, but in these few years tremendous and wondrous changes occurred in my life.
I have learned a lot and have much more to do. It was hard because I took the forgotten path, and I had my nay sayers, but they just had to step aside as I moved forward in my truth.


I am constantly striving to do more, and more for my children and today, while running I just realised, you know what? I Am doing everything in my power at this moment and it is more than enough.
It ok, and I am satisfied because I am moving in the right direction. I accept that this is how much I can do, I am only human.

Before this golden time that I admit being in :D, I was of course fat, weak, fatigued, depressed, and NOT OK.

So at one moment I realised that I need to change in order to have a better life for me and for everybody around me.

So don’t forget about yourself, dear mommy and this:

– childbirth is the most exquisite spiritual experience. Is a gift from God to all women, is a gate to a higher dimension and a passage for girls into womanhood.
– take care of your body before and after pregnancy.
– eat clean healthy foods- do not take this like a joke. Because you are skinny and you can eat all the junk that you want and you do not see any difference, but pregnancy will fuck up your metabolism and strange unwanted thing may happen to your body. things that you can’t undo.
– drink water40 ml/kg body
– exercise 3-5 times a week
– sleep
– be gentle with yourself and be present for your kids
– do not make excuses. make the time and stay strong, take one moment at a time.

Give me five!

Lesson no. 2- WHAT TO DO?

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You were asking what to do while meditating. And nothing came.
You kept wishing that something like do that or that will just pop up in your mind and you will know.

Of course, you realized after you finish meditating while you were untangling your mouse cord. What was that we tried to convey to you?

You were becoming annoyed your mind already full with what to do first, then a long list of things that needs to be done.. When you took that long breath you just knew that IT ISN’T ABOUT THE DOING BUT ALL ABOUT THE BEING.


It is normal to have a speedy mind and to think that you are your mind, but it is the time to separate yourself from it. Do you want to know what to do? Simply feel with your heart what is that you are doing, breathe into your being and taste the energy surrounding you. Stop running somewhere else thinking that if you do a lot then you will arrive someplace where it will be better than what you have now. Doing things won’t get you anywhere. Only the being in the moment, in what you do will get you far far into the knowledge of your own self.

While washing the dishes, hearing others being angry and yelling, in the traffic, while doing crunches, whatever, realize that you only have one option and that is how you feel about it all. Do not react. Feel and most of all L I S T E N. And when you have heard right, then you move knowing exactly what to do.
So do that.

Alpha Teachings- Channeling

Course of Miracles
Lesson 2
I have given everything I see in this room
[on this street, from this window, in this place]
all the meaning that it has for me.

The exercises with this idea are the same as those for the first one. Begin with the things that are near you, and apply the idea to whatever your glance rests on. Then increase the range outward. Turn your head so that you include whatever is on either side. If possible, turn around and apply the idea to what was behind you. Remain as indiscriminate as possible in selecting subjects for its application, do not concentrate on anything in particular, and do not attempt to include everything you see in a given area, or you will introduce strain.

Merely glance easily and fairly quickly around you, trying to avoid selection by size, brightness, color, material, or relative importance to you. Take the subjects simply as you see them. Try to apply the exercise with equal ease to a body or a button, a fly or a floor, an arm or an apple. The sole criterion for applying the idea to anything is merely that your eyes have lighted on it. Make no attempt to include anything particular, but be sure that nothing is specifically excluded.
Each of the first three lessons should not be done more than twice a day each, preferably morning and evening. Nor should they be attempted for more than a minute or so, unless that entails a sense of hurry. A comfortable sense of leisure is essential.


Stop Hoping for Your Woman to Get Easier
David Deida- The superior Man

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The most erotic moment for a woman is feeling that you are
Shiva, the divine masculine: imperturbable, totally loving, fully
present, and all-pervading. She cannot move you, because you already
are what you are, with or without her. She cannot scare
you away, because you already penetrate her in fearless love, pervading
her heart and body. She cannot distract you, because your
one-pointed commitment to truth will not bend to her wiles.
Feeling this hugeness of love and freedom in you, she can trust
you, utterly, and surrender her testing in celebration of love.
Until she wants to feel you as Shiva again. And then the testing
will begin anew. In fact, it is precisely when you are most
Shiva-like that she will most test you.
Perhaps you have been working toward some financial goal,
and finally you have succeeded. After months or years of effort,
you have creatively earned a large amount of money. You feel
happy, full, successful. You feel great. You come home to your
woman and want to share the news with her.
“I just made a million dollars today.”
“That’s nice.”
“That’s nice!!?? You know how hard I’ve been working for
“I know. It feels like I haven’t seen you in months. Did you
remember to pick up the milk on the way home?”
“Oh, sorry. I forgot. But who cares? We could buy a dairy
farm now!”
“I asked you to pick up the milk three times this morning,
and I put a note on your briefcase. How could you forget?”
“I said I’m sorry. Look, I’ll go get the damn milk….”
Why is she being this way? Because she simply wants to deflate
your success? No. She is challenging you because your success
doesn’t mean shit to her, unless you are free and loving. And
if you are free and loving, nothing she says can collapse you. She
wants to feel you are uncollapsable, so she pokes you in your
weak spot.
Of course she knows how much this moment of success
means to you. This is precisely why she is negating it. Not because
she wants to hurt you. But because she wants to feel Shiva.
She wants to feel your strength. She wants to feel that your happiness
is not dependent on her response, nor on you making a
million dollars. She wants to feel you are a superior man.
It’s a tall order to be this free, and in your more mediocre
moments you will wish your woman would settle for less. But if
you are a man who is living his fullest, willing to play his edge
and grow through difficulties, then you will want her to test you.
You may not like it. But you don’t want her to settle for some
bozo who depends on his woman’s response to be happy. If you
are aligned with your mission, you are essentially happy, even
though times cycle between difficult and easy. You don’t need
your woman’s strokes to fulfill your mission. It still feels good
when she strokes you, but you don’t need mommy anymore,
telling you what a good boy you are. And your woman doesn’t
want you to need mommy. In fact, it sickens her.
If your woman is weak, she may settle for a weak man, and
therefore play into your need to feel like a good boy. But if she is
a good woman, a strong woman, she won’t tolerate your childish
needs for a pat on the head, collecting bigger toys, and being king
of the mountain. A good woman will love the childlike part of
you, but she wants your life to be guided by your deepest truths,
not your untended childhood wounds. She wants to feel that at
your core you have grown beyond the need for kudos and million-dollar
toys. She wants to feel your self-generated strength of
So she will test you. She might not be fully conscious of why
she is doing it, but she will poke your weak spots, especially in
moments of your superficial success, in order to feel your
strength. If you collapse, you’ve flunked the test. You have let
your woman deflate you. You have demonstrated your dependence
on her for external validation. Even if you just made a million
dollars, you are a weak man. Your woman cannot trust you
If you remain full and strong, humorous and happy, your
truth unperturbed by her testing, then you pass the test.
“Honey, I’ll get you some milk, all right,” you say as you
sweep her off the ground and lay her on the couch, laughing,
kissing, looking deeply into her eyes, and “milking” her happiness
with the confident loving of your caresses.
She can relax and trust your Shiva core. She can surrender the
tensions around her heart. You are trustable. You don’t need her
validation in order for you to be loving. You simply are loving.
The truth of you is love. Your fullness is independent of mommy.
You are not only a man, you are a superior man: a man who does
his best to live as love in the world and in his intimacy, a man
whose heart remains open and whose truth remains strong even
when his woman criticizes him, a man who can find the humor
in forgetting to pick up the milk on a day he made a million dollars.
This is the kind of man your woman can trust. Now, the
moment is a moment of celebration. Now, she can relax and
truly join in your jubilation, knowing you are not dependent on
her praise for your happiness. It will last, perhaps, ten minutes.
And then she will test you again.
It never ends. A woman will always test her man for the pleasure
of feeling his strength in loving, his capacity to transcend
nuisance, his persistence in his own truth, and his capacity to
share that truth in love with her, even when she is complaining—
especially when she is complaining. Her complaint is the beginning
of her pleasure. It is not true criticism, but a test of your
Shiva-hood. The criticism is entirely dissolved in love as soon as
she feels your humor and happiness in the midst of the poke.
It never ends. This is the secret. You can’t get out of it. Finding
a different woman won’t get you out of it. Therapy won’t get
you out of it. Financial or sexual mastery won’t get you out of it.
Your woman is testing you because she loves you. She wants to
feel your truth. She wants to feel your love. And she wants to feel
that your truth and love are stronger than the barbs she can throw
at you. Then she can relax and surrender into the polarity of man
and woman. Then she can trust you.
The most loving women are the women who will test you
the most. She wants you to be your fullest, most magnificent self.
She won’t settle for anything less. She knows it is true of you. She
knows in your deepest heart you are free, you are Shiva. Anything
less than that she will torment. And, as you know, she’s quite
good at it.
Yet, if your purpose is to be free, you wouldn’t have it any
other way.”

Please read it:  The BOOK

yeah, Don’t let anyone make you feel bad about yourself

And don’t take shit from people who are trying to hurt you so they can feel better. They usually say that their criticism is constructive but IF THEY WOULD BE THOSE KINDs OF PERSONS THAT CAN GIVE YOU A CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM THEY WOULDN’T BE CRITISIZING YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.

There’s this

And this

“New King”

A bitter hipster hick
Can’t stop talking shit
The F’N idiot
Don’t know when to quit
Maybe it’s time to learn
I ain’t got cash burn
All I got is the microphone
And it’s my turn

All hail the new king now, just here to bring me down
Hey nice opinion
It’s so nice that you care
But hey that’s my jam right there

A haters gonna hate
But get the shit straight
Cause punk rock talk is cheap
Do ya practice what you preach?
Your sound bites are sublime
One sour grape at a time
Surely to god you could devote your attention to something that actually matters

All hail the new king now, trust you to bring me down
Dude! Nice opinion
It’s so nice that you care
But hey that’s my jam right there

All hail the new king now, just here to bring me down
Hey nice opinion

All hail the new king now, just here to bring me down
Dude! Nice opinion
It’s so nice that you care
But hey that’s my jam right there


What is love?

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What a bold question. Right?
Love is everything and everywhere. Everybody wants it, and everybody gets it. It’s not a feeling but a state of being, our natural state. It’s something that you share with something or someone OTHER than yourself, and in the process you become ONE with the object of your love. Maybe for me feels more like giving, or to be more accurate transmitting this energy. I have mine from God and I have so much that I can share it with you. But when I give it to you I receive tenfold in return. It’s endless.
Perhaps love is the very essence of the multiverses.